SO today i've decided to do the maple syrup diet as apparently you can lose up to 2 st in 2 weeks. Personally i think it would be a miracle diet but im going to do it anyway. Its pretty much just sugared water anyway.
I'm going somewhere in a few days and i want to look my best. I tried an old (gorgeous) top on of mine the other day and it was tight as hell. My fat ass is just getting bigger because i let myself be swept along with the whole 'your happy so you must eat' thing. Listening to other people and not doing what they say has never been my strong point either.
I'm going to keep a food diary in here so people don't find it (like last time) and that if i feel some people are looking at this then i have to live up to their expectations as well as my own.

I will show him. He said i put on weight after losing a lot and laughed about it in my face. I'll show him. I'ts

not like I'm even happy anymore.

im still repulsive.
who wants to fast with me?
x

oh my god its been about half a year since ive updated..
its the one thing i hate about livejournal its so hard to keep in touch with people. Right well id best get on with this updating thing then. Im still pa, and i intend to stay that way. i still feel fucking fat and wer bloody hoo its christmas again soon ergh. im fasting now drinkin as much black coffee as poss!! well my daily intake for today so far has been

2 black coffee's

lets hope it will stay that way!

xxx

ok,
what i don't get is all these people on here who rant on about pro ana calling it sad and a joke when they follow the movement themselves...

whats worse is that some fuckers on here say shit like 'shes not ana she a 'wana ana'. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ABOUT??
i think that most people on here would agree that for once..just once it would be nice to not have to think about food. to forget it just for a while. well the reality is we cant. we didn't ask for this. we're just perfectionists who want the same thing. why should we keep this to ourselves?? why shouldn't we share information and talk to each other?? its fucking pathetic how one person thinks they can speak for the rest of us on here when all were trying to do is offer support for each other. if you have nothing nice to say about us please just
FUCK OFF.

Ok,
as i said earlier i woke up feeling really motivated.
ive done ok today id say i consumed about 300 callories. I know why!!
I watched a program about anorexia today on chnl 4....the idea of the program was probabally to put people off extreme dieting but i just wana go for not eating more and more!!
I also watched a program on fat people...omg u guys would die if u saw it!! its fucking discusting...no words cant explain it!! it made me so mad...to see them shoveling in the food. it made my stomach turn. ergh *shudders* how....just eeergh! one woman weighed 70 STONE :O
Ive only really ''got into'' this live journal stuff today and am still trying to figure it out!! i need help from people as i feel like im totally alone in this right now, everyone else seems to know what they are doing and i need your help. I dont want to eat and i wont. I just need some one to talk too.

xx:pxx

Hey ive not been on here in a while, which is strange!
i woke up today feeling all motivated and want to lose a stone before i go to a festival in june. i havnt got a clue how to do it, nothing is working right now.
Im still pretty new to live journal as i havn't been on much since i joined. i want to make some friends who have the same intrest as me as i really need help and advice. Im off to make a black coffee!
goodbye for now!

i wana purge till every ounce of what i binged on tonight is out of me...i cant bring myself to do it and i wana cry my life sucks its the biggest pile of shit ever, i lost a job which was rightfully mine to someone thinner than me.....lifes a fucking bitch..........

i hate sundays they suck!!!

im so bored...........

hey wow....i knew this would be the start of something better...!! it might sound pathetic to some people but ive had 2 packets of 10 callorie soup and a small bread roll.!!! its good for me!!! i dont want to be discustingly thin just i want ...like the outline of my ribs to show more and my hips...i dont want to feel self concious when i sit down (when it makes your legs look huge) but i need some support and people are begginin to notice the cutting out food thing any ideas on how to make them less woried?

omg im sick of this shit...im fasting for real im cutting everything out from now on water sounds good.......

Hey, ive created this journal so i can rant about eating, callories and lets say....'cutting down on food' - I also want to start this journal so i can chat to all those people who like me are not happy with craming food down their necks like an oversized binge eating hippo. I need support i dont think i can do this alone!!!